Time flies by

So it has been a long time since I have posted anything. Partially because I never think anything interesting goes on in my life. But then I look back and things have gone on. Something that I don't feel like writing about. But everything is going fine. I'm just laying on my bed. It is Winter break. It is so nice to be home. I would not necessarily say I get home sick. But it is nice to be home from school, and to be able to rest and have a good time. Man so many things have gone on. It is crazy to think back, and see the changes that happen one day at a time. I am beginning to feel comfortable with who I am. It may take some time, but one day at a time. There are so many things that I want to write. But don't know how to write it.

I am thankful for the friends that I have. They are so sweet, and is there for me, even when I turn into a jerk for no reason. I have my moments but they are always there for me. I just want to thank them, but they probably don't read this, but I hope they know how much I appreciate them, not just the ones at school. But the ones I have in Colorado. I am well aware I don't have a whole lot of friends in Colorado. But I don't think I need allot. I am fine with pretty much only hanging out with Sarah, and Lawrence. You two are amazing. Glad I have met you. I am glad I can be me around you. And in case another certain person is reading this, I am thankful I met you. I never know if you want me to mention you. I understand why you don't. I've been in your shoes. But you are a good person.

I wish everyday could be perfect, but you just got to make the most of what you got. And I try to. I had a great Christmas, full of fun with family. It is good to be able to be with them, and to have fun.

Man I feel like I can keep writing, but I don't know if I should. I hope that 2011 is a great year. It is cliche but lets hope it is a whole lot better then 2010. Not that it has been a bad year. In fact it has been a great year. Probably one of the best I have had in a long time. I don't know when I have had this much fun. It truly has been amazing. So I am glad about that.

My next post probably will not be until next year, so until then have a great last week of 2010.

Study Break

Any excuse to not study is a good excuse right? I think it is. I already passed one test today and going to take another one tomorrow. The joys of tests, so much fun, you get to pretend you know what you learned during the chapters you went over. Good thing there are study guides to help you remember.

So I'm just chilling while listening to music and doing the occasional study session. I miss the dark clouds and the weather that we had last week, that was so nice. As I look out it seems like it wants to come back but I doubt it will.

Why is it, that all on the news now is about bullying and how people are killing themselves? It is so sad. Like the freshman in the school in the east coast. Where his roommate filmed him having sex with the partner.Than the kid ended up killing himself. Why are people so cruel? Last night I was reading USA today and there were a couple headlines about people being bullied to death. It seems like all on the news lately its about homosexuality. And how people seem to have to take it upon themselves to be so rude. It should not matter who you like. Love should be love. This topic is dear to my heart and I could talk forever about it. But anyone that has a hatred for gays, or just feels uncomfortable around the subject, I challenge you to open your heart. Nobody likes being judged. Everyone wants to be accepted. So if one person is accepting for everybody, then they help another to be accepting, it can be a domino effect. Lets love everyone

Well I think I have rambled enough. I should get back to studying about Earths atmosphere again.

Have a splendid day,

Love me

Let's see what a late night blog looks like

It is 2:20 am. You might be wondering why I am up this late. And for an answer I have no idea. I just kind of am. So let's see what a late night post looks like.

I am so stressed about school. It seems like day after day I have a test. Constantly studying and doing hw. And I know that is what college is about. It is so annoying at times. That's my rant about school.

My friends up here have been good to me. I have told them something big about me. And for the most part have been supportive. Minus 2 or 3 people but who needs friends like those if they are not going to be there when I need them. I'm just wondering, has there been something in your life where you know you should tell the people closest to you say your family but know if you do something bad might come from it. There is just something that needs to be said. Well I am going through that. And for any family that may be reading this I'm not trying to hide it, there just needs to be the closest time to a perfect situation for me to say what has been troubling me. It's not fun feeling like this but it needs to be done. I just don't want to cause problems or do anything that may ruin something for the time being. All I ask is for support and when the time reveals itself you may know what it is. And if I made it too obvious just ask me and I'll think about answering.

I really don't think this late night post was a good idea. And I am tempted to erase it but I wrote it for a reason. Thanks for reading this. Have a wonderful night.

Love me!

I want to know what forever feels like

So it was pointed out to me that someone actually reads this. Granite it is my sister. (Thanks Kina). It has been a long time since I have written on this. But shoot I think it is about time that I write again.

So there has been a lot that has gone on. I know I cannot write all of it down, but I will try as much as possible.

So lets go back to summer. It was so much fun, probably the best one I have ever have. Just got to hang out with friends, just living life the way it should be lived, which is never a bad thing. I look back and I think about how grateful I am that I have amazing people in my life. Life can be fun at times.

So here I am back at Weber, some friends have gone other places, and some have stayed. But little by little I have been making some more. Which I am grateful for. It allows me to have fun, and not have to think. I know that sounds weird, but when I think I go down roads I do not want to go. So with friends I can just focus on them, and having fun.

So little by little I have been letting people know the real me. And it feels great, not having to be fake around them. I wish everyone could have the friends I have. Now to figure out my future. It is going to be interesting to decide what I am going to do. But when I do, anyone that reads this will know too.

So it seems that late night is when I put status' on facebook of things that are troubling me. Things I want people to figure out, things that I just cannot bring myself to tell to the people I care for most. And I have a friend that always reminds me to be true to myself, and if people don't want to hear it than they are not worth my attention. But that friend is my "big sister", not a real sibling but a friend that might as well be. Our conversations are so much fun. She has been through stuff and is helping her "little brother".

I think I could ramble for hours, but I think I should stop now. I will try to post more often, but until then, have a great day!

Lakers!!!

I am so excited right now. Beating the Boston Celtics in game 7 is the best thing I have ever seen. It was a grueling path to the finals. Beating the Oklahoma City Thunder in game 6 with a game winner by Pau Gasol. Then round 2 beating the Utah Jazz very easily. Then western conference finals against the Phoenix Suns. That was epic we battled but won in 6. Then the Boston Celtics. How we battled. We started off winning every other game, then they won 2 in a row going up 3-2. Then having the last two at home was great. It was epic. That is how game 7 is supposed to be played. Even with Kobe not playing too well, we still won. Everyone helped thanks to the wonderful lakers...
Kobe Bryant
Derek Fisher
Ron Artest
Andrew Bynum
Pau Gasol
Jordan Farmar
Shannon Brown
Josh Powell
Sasha Vujacic
Didier Ilunga-Mbenga
Lamar Odom
Luke Walton
Adam Morrison
Great Season Guys

Country music

So people find it weird that all I listen to is country music.Unless I am with other people then I'll listen to what they are listening to. But I find that it relates to my life so much. From Alan Jackson-Zac Brown band. They sing and it is something that sparks something in me that's like yeah I've been through that, or I wish I could do such a thing. It is so great to be able to listen and really think about the words. And so I do not get the reasoning behind why people do not like it. It makes so much sense to me. I listen and it allows me to think about my life, and get a feeling for what things may be like. Seeing how allot of the singers sing about there life. It is so great. And I love to listen and to be able to lose myself in the songs. If only people knew what they were missing out on. I can listen to it all day and not get sick of it. I am glad these singers do what they do, so that I may enjoy it. Country Music Rocks!

Easter

So Easter is a wonderful time. It is a time to remember all that Christ has done for us.It is not about candy, or rabbits. But the things He has done for us. It allows us to be here, and to have the things we have.

Easter weekend was so much fun.
Friday I went to my grandparents house, and just relaxed there for a while. Later that night Corinne and her friends came and later that night we played 3 hours of apples to apples was intense. I dont know if i can play that game for a while. But it was so much fun. It allows a time for people to get to know each other. It allows a time to know what goes through peoples mind. It is a fun game if not played for so long. Ending up with 61 green cards and still losing is crazy.

Saturday was nice. In the afternoon watched some conference. And watched Gavin for a bit. He is a cute kid. Then we went to the Banks house and dyed eggs. Some of the eggs they created were very creative. It was fun to see the things they came up with. And of course staying over the night is always fun. Eric is certainly a fun person, and I know I can tell many things too. He is a great kid.

Sunday we woke up and did the classic egg, candy and basket hunt.It took me quite along time to find my basket it was pathetic. But I did find it and it was fun. We also had quite the breakfast. It was so good. And later went back to the Grandparents house and had a family dinner. It was so good. It was a fun family get together.And a great weekend

First one!

So I was just sitting in my room last night and the thought came to my mind that I need to start a blog. I do not know why or if anyone will pay attention to it. But it seems like it is the right thing to do. I don't even know what I'm going to talk about.
Life is pretty interesting. The ups and the downs that come along with it. Lately I have just been sitting in my room with nothing to do. Which is by choice. I just have not been wanting to do anything with anyone. It is about time that I analyzed my life. I've been looking back and I have experienced many things with a lot of different people. It has been a journey that I have thoroughly enjoyed. I do appreciate all the people that have come into my life. There are especially some where I would not trade anything in the world for the experiences I have lived through. It has been so much fun. I am not saying that my life is perfect or that everything has been great. But do love what has been going on. I have people in my life that has just made it great,and I appreciate it. Just looking out of my window it seems to go on forever. Life is like that. People and experiences come in and out of your life on a daily basis. It is what you do with it that makes it great. Don't let a day go by without being nice. Someone will remember and it might just make there day. Do not forget to smile. Life is great