I want to know what forever feels like

So it was pointed out to me that someone actually reads this. Granite it is my sister. (Thanks Kina). It has been a long time since I have written on this. But shoot I think it is about time that I write again.

So there has been a lot that has gone on. I know I cannot write all of it down, but I will try as much as possible.

So lets go back to summer. It was so much fun, probably the best one I have ever have. Just got to hang out with friends, just living life the way it should be lived, which is never a bad thing. I look back and I think about how grateful I am that I have amazing people in my life. Life can be fun at times.

So here I am back at Weber, some friends have gone other places, and some have stayed. But little by little I have been making some more. Which I am grateful for. It allows me to have fun, and not have to think. I know that sounds weird, but when I think I go down roads I do not want to go. So with friends I can just focus on them, and having fun.

So little by little I have been letting people know the real me. And it feels great, not having to be fake around them. I wish everyone could have the friends I have. Now to figure out my future. It is going to be interesting to decide what I am going to do. But when I do, anyone that reads this will know too.

So it seems that late night is when I put status' on facebook of things that are troubling me. Things I want people to figure out, things that I just cannot bring myself to tell to the people I care for most. And I have a friend that always reminds me to be true to myself, and if people don't want to hear it than they are not worth my attention. But that friend is my "big sister", not a real sibling but a friend that might as well be. Our conversations are so much fun. She has been through stuff and is helping her "little brother".

I think I could ramble for hours, but I think I should stop now. I will try to post more often, but until then, have a great day!